Proust: What is your current state of mind?

My current state of mind: disappointed.  Disappointed in myself that I succumbed to being tired. I'm also in a bit of a tizzy.  I'm still not sure how I can finish all my clinical hours this semester.  I would hate to have to make it up.

I'm so tired.  I'm physically and mentally drained and I'm only two weeks into the semester.  I can't wait to be done.  December can't come soon enough.

xoxo

2013 Scorpio Horoscope

I don't usually put too much stock on horoscopes but this one's pretty good.  I hope all the good stuff comes true, HAHA.

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Overview

2013 has your name written all over it, Scorpio. Thirteen is the number of the Death archetype in the tarot card attributed to your sign. It's about the death of the outworn aspects of yourself and your life, while the sunrise of rebirth is always waiting on the horizon. Transformation, metamorphosis, passion and sexuality are all heavily pronounced this year for you. Saturn, the great taskmaster, has taken up long-term residency in your stars until 2015 to give you and your life a complete makeover. Add to this the fact that your ruler, Pluto, is in what is known as a 'mutual reception' with Saturn (mutual influence by means of swapping signs) and the force for rebuilding your life from its very foundation is doubled. This is a year for uncovering your greatest resourcefulness, and relinquishing any skeletons from your psychic closet. Death and rebirth become daily themes as you shed layers upon layers of the former you.

The speed at which your life is moving, evolving and changing is unprecedented, Scorpio. The total whirlwind that began in the latter half of 2012 continues as the eclipse points impact your sign directly. Watch for key events in May and November as signposts for more change to come. There's a good chance you'll change jobs, move, start or end a relationship or simply start an entirely new chapter of your life under this intense influence. Trust that whatever you're putting your passionate energy into this year will indeed build out to something lasting and beautiful.

This could easily be one of the most exhilarating and spiritual years in a long time, Scorpio. Jupiter supports your quest for deep change and self-awareness by working on the Eighth House (Scorpio sector) of your horoscope until June. Delve into your own secret depths and discover how powerful you really are. Few are as tough and resilient as you are. It's actually your sensitivity and vulnerability that make you strong. At the end of the day, you may be the most emotionally courageous sign there is. You heal others by showing them that it's safe to confront their own darkness as you have done. This is the greatest gift and strength you'll be sharing with many in 2013.

Romantic

The commitment theme extends into all life arenas this year, but especially love. Saturn demands that you stick with the relationship you've started if you ever want to learn deep and meaningful lessons about intimacy, Scorpio. If you jump from partner to partner, you'll remain stuck in shallow water. If you avoid love altogether for fear of being hurt, you'll simply end up lonely and bitter. Why not put your heart on the line and try being vulnerable for a change? Yes it might feel like it will kill you to trust someone again, but think of the rewards when deep passion and connection are possible if you're willing to take the risk.

Neptune continues to bring the longing for a soulful merger with a romantic partner again this year. Neptune is taking residence in your love zone for the long haul, so the themes of illusion, disillusion and the desire for a divine romance continue. You want a love that inspires poetry, art, music and cinema. You want a love worthy of the gods, Scorpio. Nothing less will do. You may have to lower your expectations if you want to survive in a real relationship inevitably filled with human limitations lest you suffer grave disappointment again and again. This doesn't mean you have to give up on the idea of a beautiful romantic relationship. Just know that it will have its off days and there will be moments of drudgery and discord, if you want something long-term. There is no escaping the difficult and ugly parts of romance.

Having the combination of Saturn and Neptune influencing your stars actually provides a healthy balance between reality and fantasy, so you may just find your way to that ever-elusive middle ground in love this year. Plus, the eclipse points will be moving your relationship along so fast that you'll have to learn your lessons quickly. You may be surprised how fast your partnership goes from zero to one hundred seemingly overnight. You may move in together, get married or just simply deepen your commitment level to one another.

Career

If there's been any wavering in your attitude toward your career goals, you can kiss that wishy-washy nonsense goodbye. You're ready to get super serious no matter how much discipline, hard work and perseverance is required. Having Saturn, the king of commitment, in your sign is forcing you to finally just go for it. All-talk-and-no-action was so 2012. This is the year for strategy, planning and follow through. You have all the talent required to hit it big; now you just need the structure to support your large-scale ventures. Saturn in Scorpio will provide the necessary framework to get it all done.

The eclipse points are hitting you so hard this year that your life is in constant fast-forward motion -- career included. You easily have so much going on that you struggle to keep track of it all. If you have not already considered getting an assistant or delegating some of the thousands of tasks and projects you've got sitting on the back-burner, this is the year to let some of the control go and ask for help. It's only holding you back when you insist on doing everything yourself, especially when the planets are pushing you so hard to create even more. You need time. Time is money, Scorpio, so find ways to free some up in 2013 so that you may pursue the passionate aspects of your work rather than getting bogged down by the grunt work.

Jupiter will continue to back your resourceful nature. Others (with money) want to help you, so don't be afraid to reach out. You're a worthy investment and you'll be able to pay them back tenfold with time. This is a year for building and capitalizing on your assets. Your potential is off the charts, and this year you're determined to realize it fully. You will not be satisfied with any half-baked measures in your career. When Jupiter moves into your travel zone during the second half of the year, expect to be moving from coast-to-coast or continent-to-continent frequently in order to expand your contacts and professional potential. You're definitely moving and shaking this year, Scorpio. There's no doubt about it!

Vacations galore!

Just came back from Jamaica, just booked Hong Kong + Philippines and now working on a Spain + France itinerary.  2013 is shaping up to be an awesome travel year!  Now if only school wasn't getting in the way...


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Jamaica 1.21-1.25

Five days is not enough but it was a nice break from reality (and from the cold).  We originally booked at Grand Pineapple but were upgraded to Beaches - both Sandals-owned resorts.  I have never been to an all-inclusive resort and let me tell you, well worth it!!  I will definitely be back!

The wait staff at Beaches was amazing.  Entertaining and professional AND best part is they remembered us throughout the trip.  Great group of people!

 We booked a tour that included Black River, YS Falls and Appleton Rum Estate.  Black River was pretty cool.  We met a spear fisher that swims in the lake to catch fish, alongside alligators! Yikes!

YS Falls was fun - O and I did the optional zip line which was awesome!  Check me out in the middle photo with the amazing view above.  I'm glad I did it even though I'm such a chicken when it comes to heights.  Thanks to O for almost pushing me off the edge, LOL.

Appleton Rum Estate was last but certainly not least.  The rum was great - now I know why Capt. Jack Sparrow was crazy about it! And of course, I brought some home with me.  How can I not?

Set atop the cliffs in Negril, destroyed by two hurricanes but rebuilt to be stronger and better than ever, Rick's Cafe is also another must-see in Negril.  Definitely a tourist trap but worth it for the beautiful sunset views overlooking the amazing Caribbean blue sea.  We also watched people dive off the cliffs into the water.  Some of them looked like they will be hurting the next day or so!

Overall, a great trip with great girls.  Had lots of laughs, lots of drinks and LOTS of food.  I will definitely go back and I will definitely go on another trip with these girls.  Can't wait for the next trip!

xoxo