11.25

I emailed a PCD at Cornell today and she replied with, "HR is aware of your application."  Not sure what to get from that.  It might mean, "yes we know you have applied for the position, so what?"  It could also mean, "we have notified HR of your interest and they have told us you have applied."  I could go on and on with analyzing (more like overanalyzing) her email but it comes down to me waiting for a call from HR - a call that may never come.

While I am waiting for that semi-dreaded phone call, I might as well work on my most reviled interview question: What are your strengths and weaknesses?  There is absolutely no right or wrong answer but what answer doesn't make me look like an asshole that's trying too hard?  That, ladies and gentlemen, is my homework this week.  For strengths, I've always gone with hard-working or willing to learn or fast learner.  All good things but I wish there was something that encompasses all of the above.  For weaknesses, well, that's where I always fumble.  I think I've had a different answer each time...all of which is complete crap - perfectionist, impatient, too focused, etc.  I try to tailor each answer to make sense with the position I've applied for but all of which comes off insincere.

Again, homework for this week is to work on my answers.  Hopefully, working on my answers means I get the job.  Or at least a phone call.


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11.24

I'M GETTING A JOB SOON.

I AM JOB.

JOB WANTED.

Experts say that the first step to accomplishing a goal is to write it down.  So, how many times do I write it before it actually happens?

When I first graduated from undergrad, the economy was not in the best shape but it wasn't bad.  It took me about 2 months to get a job.  I think I interviewed at about 3-4 places and got 2 offers.  This time around, the economy is in the shithole and once again, I am looking for a job....in a completely different field. 

It's only been about 5 weeks since I first started looking but why am I feeling so panicked?  I mean, I kinda know why.  One, everyone else around me seems to be getting a job.  Two, the last time I was looking for a job, I was also living at home.  Stressful times, my friends, stressful.

But then again, it's only a matter of time until I get THAT job - you know, the one everyone wishes they had and the one they wished they waited for.  And it's gonna be at a kick-ass hospital (HSS or Cornell).  And I am going to shine.  Wait and see.  It's only a matter of time.

11.23

Weekly Scorpio horoscope: Week of October 3rd

A hectic week ahead. This week money rules your mind primarily and for that you will work hard to meet your goals. At work, things are improving and you are not far away from success. Remember, whether you are forgetting anything important while your mind is totally set on your goals? Balance the flow of time against work uniformly to avoid the rush in the ninth hour. Help of subordinates and seniors will provide extra support to you.

It is the time of growth financially and so does your finances. It will be difficult for you to hold on money when expenditures are high. Give priority to necessities first. Take care of theft or loss in travel. Managing money will be little bit difficult so avoid investing money in new investments etc.

Desires in relationship rules this period. You have your own opinions for relationship and want to stick to it but sometimes adjustments are necessary to go with the flow. Remember flexibility is very much important where emotions and relations are necessary. Singles ones are suggested not to begin with the new relation in haste. It may prove to be emotional loss or attraction that may bring to loss to anything. Assess or wait till you are sure about the things clearly.

3^rd This is not a time of emotional bravery. Rather, you tend to keep the status quo either it is related to finances or relations.

4^th Your mind tends to be restless, easily bored, and in need of stimulation.

5^th Take care against sudden loss or theft. Obstacles at meetings. Love relations expand.

6^th Examining bad dreams can help you understand what is bothering you. Restlessness.

7^th Use your dynamic energy to identify and solve problems instead of blaming others.

8^th Close relations demand your attention. Financial managements make you busy. Mind is creative and favors progress at work.

9^th Feelings of others will be clear. Avoid disagreements with others. It is time to focus on financial area seriously.


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11.22

Quite a productive Sunday:

1. Went to church
2. Cleaned by room and the hallway and the area by my desk (those who know me will appreciate this)
3. Assembled a shoe rack I bought earlier this year
4. Walked Dooze and he behaved (yay!)

Things I still need to get done:

1. Find a job (getting closer...I can feel it)
2. Plan my birthday party - I've picked a dinner place but haven't decided on the dance venue)
3. Nails - I need a birthday mani/pedi but this can be done in 2 weeks so no rush
4. Put together a birthday package
5. Fold my sweater dresses
6. Hang all the stuff I bought from All Saints
7. Buy hangers (skirt, pant, trinkets) from Container Store
8. Buy wine glasses, drinking glasses, glass bottle(s) and funnel from Crate and Barrel - funnel can be from somewhere else actually

Sexy and I Know It

I had a conversation with Eddie (roommate) about insecurities.  Sure, once in a while I think about how I wish I were skinnier or taller or whatever it is I don't like about myself at the moment. These insecurities are mostly temporary and I usually only think about them when I'm not busy thinking about other things.  Some people, though, have deep-seated emotional insecurities that plague them most their lives.  These insecurities are what sparked the conversation Eddie and I had.

I have a friend who is smart, pretty and she has a lot going on in her life and it really boggles my mind when I think about how insecure she is.  I'm not really sure where her insecurities stem or if she's even aware of it - and that might be the saddest part.  I am not saying that I'm better than her in any way.  Like I said, she's pretty and she's smart but her insecurities are holding her back.  She can do so much more if she wasn't so self-limiting.  I guess that is the best description of insecurities - they are terribly self-limiting.

I am not saying I don't have insecurities.  As I mentioned earlier, I do. But, I am also aware that I have the power to direct my life in a direction that I feel best serves me (without hurting anyone, of course).  I am not a selfish person but once in a while, I do like to put myself ahead of others because I deserve it.  I guess I'm lucky that I have great self-awareness.  I'm a thinker so I like to take moments out of my day to dissect my life.  It's not easy.  In fact, it's easier said than done.  But only when we truly accept ourselves at our worst can we really appreciate all the great things in life that we have, at one point or another, taken for granted.  I may not be the smartest or the best looking girl in NYC, but I'm sexy and I know it (and I own it).

PS - I know the video/song is meant to be a parody of the LA lifestyle but I still love it (and I still love LA).  NYC needs to learn not to be too cynical/jaded and learn how to take things likely.  It's called a sense of humor people, look it up.

11.20

Weekly Scorpio Horoscope: Week of September 26th

Tuesday’s new moon in Libra awakens the deepest corners of your imagination, for better and for worse. On the plus side, you have a highly creative week ahead of you, one where serendipities abound, and those “meant to be” connections seem to crop up at every turn. Pay attention to repeating elements: if something (or someone) keeps showing up as a recurring theme, it’s not to be dismissed as coincidence. There’s a reason this keeps popping up. Perhaps there’s a lesson to be learned or something undeniable you’ve been trying to ignore? There’s a soulmate-y quality to this new moon, sparking a six-month cycle of growth. The people you meet this week may be folks you feel you’ve known in other lifetimes. While that familiar, knowing quality of these interactions is heartwarming, it’s not necessarily reason to pursue a relationship—especially if these people are otherwise engaged. If not, who knows? The next six months could lead you to quite a magical comingling. The tough side of this new moon is that it has the power to stir up some demons you’ve been trying to avoid. Since it’s affecting your twelfth house of completions, let this be the beginning of a healing journey. It’s time to deal already, Scorpio, and do the necessary mourning that comes along with grieving a loss…no matter how big or small. Don’t take that emotional journey alone, though. Support is all around you. Swallow your pride and receive it.

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11.19

Wanted: New Friends

Must be fabulous, attractive and love food; enjoys shopping for pretty things like fragrance, leather jackets, fur pelts; needs to be well-rounded and versatile and can enjoy a night on the town as well as a night in eating ramen and watching Toddlers & Tiaras; must have a great sense of humor and must be able to take it as well as dish it. Witty and sarcastic a plus.


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