Struggling

This week, my application to Johns Hopkins University is due. Much like all my other apps, this one is getting delayed because of the essay. For the program I am applying for, Hopkins requires 3 essays. I've finished one so far but the other two have left me struggling. Struggling for words when I feel like I've ran out. Struggling in my thoughts for the right "story" to tell. I'm in essay-writing hell, so to speak.

As if that wasn't hard enough, I've got Stat homework due tomorrow and a Biochem exam on Tuesday. Such is the life of a student applying to grad school. My mom asks me why I work so hard. I'm not sure if she's serious or not. This is one of those times that I can actually "see" the fruits of my labor...the A's at the end of the proverbial tunnel.

While I am looking forward to being a grad school student (assuming I get in somewhere), I am also petrified. I've been reading blogs of students currently enrolled in the programs I am applying for. It's really amped up my stress level. What if I am in over my head? I know now is not the time to stress myself out but I really am a little more panicky. I know I set impossibly high standards for myself but what if this is one time that I actually disappoint myself? I don't think I can live with that.

I'm getting way ahead of myself. I need to get into school first before I have these thoughts. And I can't get in if my apps aren't done...so 'til next time and hopefully I won't be so panicked then. Cheers!